the end of us – the start of my better life

when u decide to leave me
i feel like a cold breeze has been hit my heart
when u said its better for us to be separate
i feel like dizziness not only come to my head but also my heart too
and i realize that we aren’t in good order anymore
we just need time to understand and make a good decision

those words feels like a big hammer which crush over my heart
cold meat has getting a great beat in my head
we aren’t good enough to continue this relationship
how funny we are right now
we can’t smile nor cry
we just can see our shadow leaving further away

let’s just say goodbye for the past
and say heloo for the future
let’s have a big smile for people around us
just forget our bad terms
it just a little mistake so we can growing up better

My Partner of life

I write this post almost 01.00 in the dark morning… hhahha… after a long time I didn’t do any post, don’t know why I feel suddenly have an idea to write something… this is about my relationship with my boyfriend. I already became his girlfriend since May 2009. It means our relationship has been 2 years. I like his personality. His not handsome (I don’t like handsome guy… because they are so boring… hhahha…), his have good speaking ability, hard worker, and patient to handle my bad personality (hhahha… I’m not really a good girl actually). Now, after I build this 2 years relationship with him, he suddenly became pessimistic. I don’t know why. He lost his confident to continuing our relationship. He thinks that his family background will became a hard thing if we want to continue this relationship to the next step. Actually I don’t really care about family background in the past time because If we continue to the next step it means our relationship become the first of priority and our big family will become 2^nd priority (that’s what I think…). Now I don’t know what I should have to do to persuade him. It might become the end of our relationship… what I just want to say to him is I love him so much and I don’t want to left by him.

with Love

Cha_Rizuka

First Post : Introduce

It’s been long time ago since I wrote something in my old Blog. Now I got new one because the old one has been suspended. I used Blogger since 2 years ago, but I didn’t write much as I want. Don’t know why maybe I’m not good enough at writing so I didn’t write much story. Know I want to write about my story about many things such as family, music, my life story and etc. Because this is my first story so I will summarize what has happen with me in the last three months. I will divide it into three small points.

1^st

My Personality

I’m a 21 years old young woman. My real name is Rizka Hijriyanti (it is an islamic name which means rich girl who likes tavelling). But just call me Icha. Sometimes I think that I have become a mature women but I don’t still want to do a lot things in my world. I like speaking, make some new friends, listening to the music, hangout with my friends, and traveling in my own country (because even I live in middle java, Indonesia but I never come to other province or other island in Indonesia so I wish I can go to other place in Indonesia itself before I go abroad if have a chance, time and money off course). My zodiac is Leo so many people said that Leo woman like me have a perfectionist characteristic, but I don’t think so, because I am the sloppiest child in my family. I’m not really smart, but if try my best I could reach what I want. Many people say that I’m a silly girl who always want get some attention, they also said that I have a comical face so people could easy laugh by my expression and my silly joke. But I also had a little bad temper.

This is me

2^nd

My Activity

Seriously I want to tell you about this (LOL). Now I’m in the last year in university. I’m studying Japanese (don’t be surprised if I write in Japanese sometimes). I have big hope with this year, because if I can graduate by this year, my daddy would like to buy new motorcycle for me (yoo-hoo). So now I will study hard and finish my report as fast as I can.

Next, now I’m not a regular radio announcer like before I do, it’s because of my last year study at university. So My Program Director in my Radio didn’t let me announce as much as I do before. Sometimes I miss that time when I could tell the listener about new song and hot song. But sometimes I took a chance to announce about hard program like program which related to Asian music, reggae music and also indie music as well. I’m happy by doing it.

Sometimes I also help my old Sissy to get her picture because she is a fashion blogger. Even though my photograph skill is not good but I like to learn about photograph. I have a lot of friends who studying photograph so I get some help from them. Thanks Fellas.

This is my sissy picture which taken by me (I don’t even do any editing)

3^rd

My Family

My family is living in Tegal, middle java, Indonesia. My Family Members are Daddy, Mommy, Old Sissy, Young Sissy and also a young Brother. My daddy work at Bank since 27 years ago, he is a nice guy with a little bald in his head but I like him the way him are. Even He is a hard person to his children but he does it because he loves his family. My mother just normal mother who doing many things in our lovely home. She is so beauty and good talker (now I understand that I got speaking skill from my mommy). My Old Sissy Wulan is 25 years old woman (you already saw her picture in the 2^nd point). She is working at Semarang Government Office now. She will be marrying this early April (Finally she got a good husband, congrats). She is a really nice Sissy and I love her Fashion too. My Young Sissy Triana is 19 years old girl. She is third year economics student in Sebelas Maret University, Solo. She has a same character like my daddy, a hard person. But I’m really proud with her, because she is an honest girl (too honest maybe). The last one is my little Brother Rival. Actually he is not my own Brother, he is my little cousin whose been taken by my mother because his parents have been divorce. But he is like my own Brother so I give him same love like I gave to my Sissy. He is 7 years old. And he is 2^nd year elementary student. I love My Family So much.